The Wind That Blew My Heart Away

It coulda been me and you together walking in the rain.
We coulda been making out and making plans to run away.
But here I am all alone outside and I really wish I told her everything that I was feeling inside.
Honor Society

In chapter one, you were my summer crush
Chilled at the beach from dawn to dusk
Under my umbrella

In chapter two, it got more serious
Changed from you and me to them and us
But we fell like the autumn leafs leaves
But the leaves got swept away
And the rain bled off the page

Please don't tell me this is the end of the story
Honor Society

So I've been thinking a lot this past 2 days about who should I pick and who should I leave miserable. In my past blog, the reason why I'm not in love anymore for the reason that I like someone else but I'm really afraid to tell that person nor tell it to my current boyfriend. The reason is that, I'm not sure if he'll give the same treatment or love to me and I don't think I'll be happy when I choose her. On the other hand, My boyfriend is the most amazing boy that I've ever been with despite the fact that we always have petty fights that turns into a big problem. He's to sensitive about the things around us and what's worst is that he misunderstood a lot of things and I'm afraid to let him see the other side of things. But despite all of her flaws, I still learn how to make my patience longer and learn how to understand what he's going through even though I know that it's over the edge already. In short, I love him dearly but I'm not in love with her anymore.

To the person that I like right now, he's really pretty and nice but I don't think I'd meet my expectations to him.

I'm really don't know who should I pick... But as I woke up a while ago, I realized that all this fling with that person is just there to fill me in whenever my boy and I have misunderstanding. You can call me a player but that's how I am. I'm the kind of person to keep things and lie about it because I know how the person will feel when I tell the truth. I don't want to hurt someone.

But I really need to make a choice and I hope whatever decision I make, I'll be certain.

At around 2pm, I texted the person and I said that this is goodbye. Even though I want to tell him what I feel about him, I know that things will get more complicated and both parties will be torn by my decision. I really do hope that fate and destiny will find our hearts again and renew what we have left behind..

If ever you're reading this, I hope that we could still be friends. I'm really sorry..
But I just stood there frozen and he got away.....